You were too cowardly (to be a martyr)

You thought you were the only one who held it
Though I always shared your pain
You never let it out
You never mourned him
And then you went insane
In the house, in the house
The smell of blood remains
And the gunshot rings loudly in my brain

Chorus – You were too cowardly to be a martyr
You were too cowardly to live without her
You run away and hide
From the inside

Far away from home, I feel so alone
I call you up to say hi
I get the answering machine with the typical goodbye
I didnt want to live my life anymore
So I quit
And Lindsey, please dont be sad,
You know how much I missed my dad.

Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me? This cant be happening.
This cant be happening to me.
Dont touch me now! I cant bear it now.
You said you wanted to live, live
I thought you were stronger, stronger than this

Chorus

We shared pain, you said you would stay
She killed herself, the classic cliché
And now Im alone and its getting harder
Im wondering if Im strong enough to be,
To be a martyr

You were too cowardly to be a martyr
You were too cowardly to live without her
You ran away
Inside yourself
Didnt think it would hurt anyone else
Look whos crying now
Look whos crying now
Im crying now
Im a martyr now